Okay, that sounded terrible. It's not like I am a depressed person or anything. Promise. I just get stressed sometimes... at the worst times. I've noticed it kinda takes a lot to get me stressed... but when I get to that point it takes a bit to get me out of that little rut. I've also learned it's not a fun place to be in. I am a naturally happy person. Of course, any of you that actually know me know that I am always happy. But when I get down? Boy do I get down.
So what's been up with my life lately? All of a sudden I feel great. I mean, sure, I still get stressed (darn you, summer school!), but I am so happy! I am kinda enjoying it. :.)
I've learned something. I don't know everything. I am a Christian. We all know that. But there are a lot of things that I am uncertain about. There are things that I am taught are sins. But I just don't understand how God can be against some things. I also think I am getting a little more laid back. I'm not sure how much I should say. Since I know that I have friends that read this that might take offense... like school officials. But there are things that I am told are wrong, that I don't agree with. Like drinking. I don't see anything wrong with it. Sure, getting drunk? I can see that. But a drink with dinner? I don't think it's all that bad. There is all this negative attitude against drinking. I don't agree with drinking to the point of getting drunk. That gets dangerous. But a drink (that happens to be alcoholic) with dinner is the same thing as drinking a soda with dinner. It's just about the taste. Not the alcohol or buzz. Not that I am gonna go out a drink. I am not 21. So I don't drink. I respect the law. And I respect my school and its rules. I just don't really understand where all the negative attitude comes from.
Any way. I am not the kind of person who enjoys not knowing or understanding. I guess it kinda just fuels my desire to get to know God a little more. Maybe I can understand things a little better. I dunno.
On a side note, I have always thought church was nice, but unnecessary. Don't get me wrong, it's good to go. You learn stuff, get to be around people who think like you. Like a club meeting. And I have always really enjoyed it. But I know that you don't have to go to church to be a Christian. There are Christians that don't go. But I haven't gone in a few weeks and I hate it. I really like church. Not when my alarm clock goes off and I know I could just sleep in... but once I am there I love it. And I really miss it. Maybe this weekend I'll have someone to take me? I miss it!
I am so ready for summer to be over. At least, summer school to be over. I can't focus. I have an exam tomorrow, and here I am. Sitting at my desk writing a blog to avoid studying. Last night I went out with some people (and met some really awesome people- you guys know who you are SHOUT OUT to YOU!). I am kinda failing at the studious... er... student thing. Oops.
Well, now that I feel guilty, time to study. Sorry I rambled today. I'm a spaz. :.)"Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message at the tone
'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything
Nothing at all, nothing at all"
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